My life has been filled with endless to-do lists and a drive to complete them, no matter the effect on my body. By completing these endless tasks I felt like I was achieving so much and was always seen by others to be “doing so well in life”. This put a lot of unnecessary pressure on me to perform and I would be very hard on myself if I didn’t finish the crazy goals I had set. I lived on nervous energy and anxiety, making me exhausted by the end of a working week.
The stress I placed on myself was insurmountable and I felt like I could never really get to that place of perfection. I was setting myself up for failure from the get-go and this was taking its toll on my body.
My hands would constantly shake and I was always looking for a quick fix of sugar or carbs to get me through the day. This continued for quite a major part of my life and I could never really see a way off this merry-go-round I had put myself on.
I realised that I could no longer keep up with this momentum and I needed to surrender to what my body was telling me. I always felt so tight, like my body was turning in on itself. When I took the time for myself to just stop and be still in an Esoteric Yoga session, it was amazing how much my body would release and return to a more natural way.
My body would tell me so much when I chose to stop, listen and connect.
Listening to what my body would share moment by moment during the sessions, as well as in each day, took a lot of getting used to and I still fall back into my old habits at times but that’s ok too. I now have a lot more tools and tips to support me.
The 6 week online Esoteric Yoga Stillness Program for Women showed me that as a woman my life didn’t need to be this way and that I didn’t need to just push through, ignoring my body.
This program has been much more than what I thought yoga to be. The program has offered a beautiful awakening to how gentle and truly nurturing with myself I can be.
It’s allowed me the space to connect to what I knew was always there and that’s my own connection to how delicate and warm I can be every day if I choose it. By using supportive tools including all that the modality of Esoteric Yoga offers, I can connect to myself with a deepening clarity and more care than I have ever thought possible.
Such simple movements from the sessions can be so powerful and remind me that we needn’t be ruled by anxiety, stress and the ever-present “to-do’s list”. Being gentle with ourselves opens up a whole new pathway of connection, not only to ourselves but to all around us.