Recently my son was not well. He was very uncomfortable in his body and was quite restless and unsettled. He was fighting high temperatures for a few days until I got antibiotics from the doctor to treat him for an ear infection. I went to his room to our rocking chair to help him settle down. I could feel the tension in my body from the way he was.
Then I said to myself, “connect to your tenderness and surrender.” And as I let my body go and connected to my stillness, my son Michael instantly surrendered into my chest and we both fell into a restful sleep together. It was just so beautiful, yet so confirming of how easy it was to choose this quality, which then allowed my son to settle and deeply rest within himself.
I discovered my own stillness through Esoteric Yoga which was founded by Serge Benhayon. Stillness for me is a deep place of expansiveness, and warmth. A place where no doubt, anxiousness or raciness exists. It is where there is a deep inner knowing and a still presence inside of me. It feels absolutely beautiful and exquisite.
Before I became a mother I participated in a few Esoteric Yoga classes, where most of the time I would eventually fall into a deep restful sleep. It was very hard for me to stay present with my body as my mind would drift into thoughts or I would check out and go to sleep. It was an eye opener for me, as to how exhausted I was running my body.
Today when I practice Esoteric Yoga, I can still drift into my thoughts or into a deep sleep but the biggest difference now is that I have a lot less resistance to being with myself and connecting to the quality of stillness. Initially I found it very difficult to lie still for an hour as there was such a huge momentum of restlessness in my body.
Parenting isn’t always an easy walk in the park job. There have been some very stressful situations to face at times. But the more I have developed my relationship to stillness, the more it has supported me to parent my son through the various decisions I need to make; to the emotional, physical and energetic support I can offer him.
By connecting to my stillness, I have been able to connect to my own inner wisdom, parent and teacher. When I offer this quality to my son, he so easily connects to it and he has often reminded me of it also. It has been a wonderful testament to myself of how simple parenting from this space can be.
My son is a beautiful, sensitive yet powerful boy and I have been fortunate to receive such positive feedback from his daycare and my immediate family of how lovely and easy he is to look after. He takes his time doing things, moving his body with care and loves to help out. He also has a wonderful temperament. Could this be my reflection of how parenting with stillness affects how my child will be with himself?
Everywhere I go with him, he draws attention by his gorgeousness. He is an incredible reflection to my partner and I of what awesome parents we are too.
My deepest gratitude to Serge Benhayon for bringing through what true yoga – union with God in the body – really means. I wouldn’t be where I am today without it.
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