In the last year I have participated in several courses with the Esoteric Yoga Stillness Program for Women and from the support of these amazing programs I have come to a far deeper understanding of the relationship I have with my body. Through the program – the simplicity of the movements, and taking the time to stop and connect in each session – I have been able to connect to a stillness within me that I had never felt before.
During the first program I participated in, I was able to identify patterns and behaviours that were roadblocks on my path to this re-connection. In the first few sessions I became very conscious of a pattern of anticipating the next thing ‘to do’ and rushing into the next movement even before the presenter had finished suggesting a movement for the body! With this new awareness I was gradually able to give myself the space to feel when to move, how to move at my own pace and rhythm, and with no rush. This felt very important as I knew that it didn’t just relate to the Esoteric Yoga sessions, but to many parts of my life.
The more I focussed on this in the sessions the more it flowed into the way I was living. I began to slow down and become more conscious of every movement I was making – whether at home, at work, or in fact, anywhere. I felt that this awareness was bringing me ‘back to myself’, and powerfully so.
Another pattern I identified was the belief that sitting too long would trigger pain from old injuries. But this old belief was totally shattered in a session that began with pain in my head, neck and left leg. I realised that this pain was my body’s way of letting me know what was truly going on in my life and unless acknowledged it would remain a big block between me and the depth of stillness that was possible. I sat, and then moved with a newfound depth of tender care for my body, as well as the willingness to let go of any old patterns that had contributed to this pain. Slowly, the pain began to subside, eventually disappearing altogether. It had not, as I had feared, distracted me, but given me a tangible reason to feel deeper than ever before into every movement, moving in the rhythm my body was asking for.
I was astounded that my body responded so quickly to such loving care and presence.
With this attention to the detail of what was in the way of a deeper connection to my body the feeling of stillness continued to grow throughout the sessions. My body had been reminding me regularly how it used to feel when I ignored what it was trying to tell me, often in the form of pain or discomfort, but now it was showing me how my loving attention was releasing much of that old denial and disregard. I could also feel the importance of truly appreciating how far I had come, and the level of stillness I now had access to.
The time I have given to myself to participate in this amazing Esoteric Yoga Stillness Program For Women is deeply precious and one of the building blocks of the foundation I take out into the world daily. This foundation supports me in every situation I am in – from talking on the phone, to being stuck in traffic, to preparing my food, and so much more.
As I am building this foundation of being deeply present with myself, and getting to know my own inner stillness, I am observing that my awareness of everything around me, and everything I am doing and feeling, is growing as well.
Every Esoteric Yoga session has been so very different, but no less powerful, constantly revealing to me the consequences of how I have previously lived and the subsequent effects on my body, and how by changing the way I treat my body, I have changed my life. My commitment to releasing the roadblocks to living in connection with my inner stillness has evolved a new deeply caring relationship with my body, and the beautiful woman I am. This amazing program is something I would have never missed and the loving support of the presenters and the other women in the program, even though we were participating online from different locations around the globe, was tangible. I look forward to the next one, while knowing that the responsibility I have now is to continue to build on what I have committed to, in every moment of my life.
Eternal student of life
Auckland, New Zealand